Awesome and personal day. Thoughts of the day.
Today was a glorious day for me. Church service was really amazing. Brought me closer to God in a whole new way.
I thought I'm able "not" to talk about 'her' in my soical conversations or in my blog. I was soo wrong!!! I'm always thinking of 'her', which isn't the right time for me now but still I can't control my feelings. It's really sickening to just to think about 'her' and I almost got hitted by a car due to it! It's a cause worth dying for but not in this way! (Okay, shut up, I know what you kids thinking. :p)
Even during the fellowship of strikeforce today. I can't help it but always go on the topic of relationships. Indirectly. It seems like the marriage sermons really hitted me really hard. Like a brick. I thought this 'love' will go away after a while. But after all this while, it gets only stronger and stronger. Prehaps because I see 'her' every weekend in church, but that's a totally different story. Boy, 'she' is beautiful, i tell you!
Back to the fellowship, I really felt real close to some of the strikeforce members. I can really feel the love from them. In just short 45 mins max, one of them actually took time to listened to me and advised me on my visions from God and how to deal about 'her'. 'She' sounded like a pest but 'she' isn't okay?!
Thoughts of the day. Sounds really weird, but if I do rate myself how do I be a good bf(boyfriend, not building fund), I would fare like 3/10?
I'm pretty impatient, can't really listen to someone for hours though I can sometimes. I'm pretty naggy. I hate shopping except for my own stuffs. I can't commit my time. I can't provide for 'her'. I'm a pretty shut-down emotionally yet I do joke till most probably I'll drive 'her' to 'her' grave. The list goes on and on. And I think I'll just hold this thought for at least 4 years.
If 'she' is still single and avilable by then(not cursing her though), then praise the Lord. Got a chance.
But if 'she' goes attached(either male or female) then I'll give my blessings anyways. It's really hard to let go, but God's more important.
I think I need to look down and focus on my guitar skills and ask Mr. marc to train me to brush up my guitar skills.
Electric drill with 3 picks attracted to it, anyone? Rock it!
PS. I do still love you....
I thought I'm able "not" to talk about 'her' in my soical conversations or in my blog. I was soo wrong!!! I'm always thinking of 'her', which isn't the right time for me now but still I can't control my feelings. It's really sickening to just to think about 'her' and I almost got hitted by a car due to it! It's a cause worth dying for but not in this way! (Okay, shut up, I know what you kids thinking. :p)
Even during the fellowship of strikeforce today. I can't help it but always go on the topic of relationships. Indirectly. It seems like the marriage sermons really hitted me really hard. Like a brick. I thought this 'love' will go away after a while. But after all this while, it gets only stronger and stronger. Prehaps because I see 'her' every weekend in church, but that's a totally different story. Boy, 'she' is beautiful, i tell you!
Back to the fellowship, I really felt real close to some of the strikeforce members. I can really feel the love from them. In just short 45 mins max, one of them actually took time to listened to me and advised me on my visions from God and how to deal about 'her'. 'She' sounded like a pest but 'she' isn't okay?!
Thoughts of the day. Sounds really weird, but if I do rate myself how do I be a good bf(boyfriend, not building fund), I would fare like 3/10?
I'm pretty impatient, can't really listen to someone for hours though I can sometimes. I'm pretty naggy. I hate shopping except for my own stuffs. I can't commit my time. I can't provide for 'her'. I'm a pretty shut-down emotionally yet I do joke till most probably I'll drive 'her' to 'her' grave. The list goes on and on. And I think I'll just hold this thought for at least 4 years.
If 'she' is still single and avilable by then(not cursing her though), then praise the Lord. Got a chance.
But if 'she' goes attached(either male or female) then I'll give my blessings anyways. It's really hard to let go, but God's more important.
I think I need to look down and focus on my guitar skills and ask Mr. marc to train me to brush up my guitar skills.
Electric drill with 3 picks attracted to it, anyone? Rock it!
PS. I do still love you....
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