Moody.

I don't want to talk about it. But seriously, I now know how distraction really works. It really kills you! It's been a long time since I've fell in love deeply. Good or bad, I dunno. Hitted me hard like a piece of brick.


Yes, the game I've been waiting since febuary 2006 is coming just 1 to 2 weeks now! Medieval 2: Total War!!!!! The gold demo was great; and Christianity is the main issue here, though it doesn't really glorify God in anyway, but it's a great way to spark up my interest in church's history. Excuses, maybe but whatever! I need a breather from all those crazy stuff in my life anyways.

Sometimes I do really hated myself for falling in love in such a "timely" time like this; I should really stay focused on my school life, church life, ministry life, everything but love life(okay, and marriage life too, but you get the point, right?). I have a few points, dreams and visions I wanna fufill in the next 10 years and relationships is not 1 of them. I dunno... but for real, I really feel lonely(don't say anything if you aren't encouraging me.)

Prehaps I kinda got influenced by my classmates and stuff but it's a whole different thing. It's "whole lotta love".

10 years. So many ideas, so many dreams. But everything I do is useless if I don't do them to glorifiy God.

Whom will I be still in contact with by then? Will I be able to open a business by then? Will I be a millionaire by then? Will I have 'death note' by then.

It's really scary just to think that someone has the edge to use a secret to destroy me(in a sense.) Praise God this person's not my enemy!

Later kids!