It's time to move on!

Like I said, it was really hard not to love "her". God is a joker. Really, He is. He knows I'll struggle over this alot, and He gives trials and trials, never-ending actually... Ever since beginning I began to commit myself to church till now.

But it's all worth it. The moment I thought and acted about not to think about "her" completely, visions and purpose starts flooding in.

Pastor Phil spoke a word on sunday service that I felt with all my heart it's for Shavonne and me.

There's more things I need to rise up in Strikeforce. Suddenly there is so many things I have to rise up and do it, otherwise it'll all come down crashing on me....

I'm really speechless... I'm really in awe of what is God trying to show me here. There's so much information that goes on in my head and it doesn't makes sense to me.

It's almost as though I'm going to the future.

I know what season I am. I'm still in the season of changing. There's so many areas I need to be humble in.

Excited, thrilled. Worse thing that can ever happen to me is I drop dead now. Heck, God will raise me from the dead.

Just a few "wants" in my recent list:

In order:

(1) About "her", hope she'll get a godly, loving bf after her vow.

(2) Get more involved in logistic in Strikeforce, even if I have to go make-up cell group. Thing is... How to explain to Kee Liang?

(3) Survive in NS.


That's all.

"Semper Fi"

Later kids.