Only my faith remains..

Can you imagine the thoughts Simon Peter when he denied Christ 3 times?

According to Matt 26: 69-75;

1st denial, "I do not know what you are saying.",

2nd denial,"I do not know this Man!"

3rd denial, with curse and swearing, "I do not know this Man!"

But wait, didn't Peter said that he will never made to stumble?(Matt 26:33) He was so sure of himself that he wouldn't fall. He's over confident that he'll stood by the Lord.

He even mentions that in Luke 22:33 that he would rather die than deny Christ.

Isn't he like us? We told our leaders, "we'll behind you all the way." Then we went MIA when trouble hit us..

Experience can be a good teachers to us, but don't let us stumble because of that. I rather myself be humbled before the Lord than waver when the body of Christ needs me.

Among the 12 apostles, Simon is the only person who went close enough to see Jesus' trial.

Among the 12 apostles, Simon is the only person who dare to walk on water.

Among the 12 apostles, Simon is always trying to answer the questions.

Among the 12 apostles, he's always the most spiritual.

He's always the most hungry for the spiritual stuff among the 12 apostles.

But yet Simon Peter is the one whom always speaks the wrong things(Matt 16:22-23), been rebuked the most by Jesus Himself. Yet each time we see Simon Peter humbled before the Lord.

Though he may not understand fully what He had taught him, but after Jesus has risen from the dead and asked Simon Peter 3 times, "Do you love Me? Do you love Me even if you died the same way I died?"

His ego is gone, his pride is gone. His whole world is shaken. His confidence in himself destroyed. Everything he thought he once had were totally shaken by that 3 denials he thought he won't made, even to his death. Only his faith remains..

Guys... How much we can relate to this ordinary man? Whom he became the first pope/bishop according to the Catholic Church. Whom preached the first sermon. Whom witness his wife's crucifixion, and his faith was so strong he told her, "Remember the Lord!" before she died?

If God can use such a normal and imperfect person like him so greatly.. How much more can He use us? It's not only up to us to do the job God called us to do. The Holy Spirit will aid us!


I urge you to remember this, "Even if the entire world came down crushing on me, even if I lose everything, my faith remains."


"Nothing else is up to my name, only my faith remains.."








"Shavonne, I know what to do, if you're reading this, I'm doing fine, enjoy your trip..I'll be fine.. Sorry for making you worry over nothing.."

My relationship with shavonne

Shavonne's leaving to indo for a few days tomorrow, so I think it's good to make things clear about my relationship with her.

To make you understand, let's imagine this story for a while..

Imagine you have a younger sister in your family. But your family was so poor that your parents had to sell away your sister...

Then 12 years later, you found out where your sister's adopted family are and you found back your sister!

That's how I felt after I got to know shavonne better. Do keep that in mind that this friendship is really birthed out from prayer.

I've been praying for a close-strong-bonding friendship on and off for 2-3 years now, ever since I've became a Christian, cause I don't feel loved in my family.

And it just so that time is so perfect on our side, I wasn't in my good spirits just when I got to know shavonne slightly better. I could still remembered that I really poured out my feelings to her when my grandfather passed away.

I think that's where I really see a sister in her. She was listening. Just listening. All I needed back then was just a listener. So I think since then, I told myself to be there for her if she wants me too.

So yea, we really went through alot together. There were a few times I was really furious at her. But I told myself this, "Come on lah, she's my sister, I should be more loving and understanding towards her."

It has been 6 amazing months of journey.. I'll remember and cherish this beautiful friendship we built. ;)


Think about it... I hope I cleared your doubts..

John 14:14

"If you ask anything in My name, I will do it." ~ Jesus in John 14:14

No, I'm not talking about spiritual things here. I'm talking on the realm of the natural.

Jesus mentions here that if you ask anything in His name, He'll do it for us, out of love.

In John 13:35, Christ mentions that people will know we're Christians by loving people.

But what I'm trying to say here is, how many people or friends are you going to promise? Can you keep it?

So far for me, I've promised one person with this promise, and it's really hard to keep it, of course it's shavonne. =p

I think I didn't really break it, right? I mean, I've really tried my best of my ability to aid her, to be an armour bearer for her, etc etc etc.

It's really, really hard to find someone to get yourself involved this promise, let alone fulfill it. I'm truly blessed for the past 6 months.

I've found the real meaning of friendship, the price of it, the motivation of it. Love as your intention constantly in a friendship is NEVER easy, especially when both of you are sleepy and had a long day, and terrible mood swings..

I've finally understood some of the biblical friendships like David and Jonathan or Paul and Timothy..

I am speechless, it is so amazing that I couldn't believe how blessed I am..

Knowing shavonne at such a level now is so amazing that as though I've found back my sister after went missing for 17 years...

Emerge, Shavonne

Emerge is finally over! 9 sessions, been through all of them is hard enough, let alone serving in the mist of it.

Overall it was awesome, but somewhat I was expecting alot more. I still think last year's emerge is the best to me. I'm not saying Emerge is not good, but I'm expecting something more. lol

You can really see the serving side of the church during this emerge. It's really amazing how much they're willing to sacrifice!!

I've lost my temper a few times during emerge, cause was frustrated over a few little things. But I wanna thank Shavonne for changing my character for the better for the past 6 months..

She forces me to seek perfection on character building and I'm appreciative of what she's doing. ;)

Shavonne, thanks again.. haha..

I must say that I almost always listen to her immediately.. Whether I liked it or not.. No matter how mad I am.. She's the only one on earth so far that have such great influence over me.. haha

You guys know I'm in Strikeforce, right? Whether I see SF members serving Boon in such a great way, I stopped and thought to myself.. Is there anyone who is willing stood by my side?

At first, I thought no one.. But due to recent events, God shown me that person, and that is Shavonne.. I'm really surpised when God shown me the answer..

I knew she's my confidante, my best friend, my sister, but I didn't expect her to move to visit me even though I'm a little troubled..

That's what are friends for, guys! That's what are friends are for...


What would I do without my cute, little princess Shavonne?


Ladies and gentlemen, I've just found the true meaning of friendship through these 6 months.. All these years, I've been searching for a true friend ALL MY LIFE and now she's finally here.. I'm so thankful... I really don't know what to say in order to thank you, Shavonne... ;)

Shavonne...oh shavonne..

Happy 17th birthday shavonne! Looking how we know one another is a miracle!! Thinking back, I can't help but to think that this kind of bonding friendship is truly blessed by the Lord.

So...


Happy 17th birthday, wishing you that you won't have enough hands to carry your birthday gifts back home!

I'm really fortune to know you as a friend and thanks for been there for me. No words or actions can express how grateful I am to you...

You pick me up when I fall down.. You have been there for me when I don't know who to trust..

Thank you for loving me..

Commitment

Thinking back... I kinda focused on the wrong stuff since the beginning of the year. I was too involved in my thoughts of having "her" as my gf back then... Even when I'm in a vow!

It's really silly to think all of that nonsense in the mist of all this. I know this isn't the right season for this yet. So I decided to "strengthen" that vow I've made.

If you guys realised back then, I used to wear a ring on my right hand for the kick of it... I was thinking.. since I can be so distracted about BGR sometimes, why not I wear that ring on my right ring finger to remind myself I'm in a vow?

Sounds silly, but I'm going to do it, as long as it can helps me to focus more unto the Lord. I'm even planning to get a good sliver ring when I get slightly rich..

So, if you guys read this entry and know what's going on, please don't go tease me about who's that special gal, ok?

And please don't make any silly comments on any female friends and guess. I rather you make fun of me than an innocent party.

Later all..

Action speaks louder than words..

The close friendship with Ericka, Lynde & Rose can be seen clearly. Their actions shows it all.

I'm really shocked when Rose actually cried when she saw those photos in a photo album Lynde & Ericka gave her. That shows how close they are...

As for me.. Looking back 5 months ago... It has been crazy. I didn't expect to find a sister in her after adding her msn.

Man, I love msn.. Back then, I was reached out from msn. Now I've found my best friend and sister through msn...again. Interesting!

I didn't expect us to be so close in just 5 short months!

I really enjoyed fellowshipping with Shavonne today. Even though we didn't talked much today cause both of us are really tired.. But I really enjoyed Shavonne's presence..

I can simply keep quiet and still enjoy just been with her. I felt I've understand her much better today. And I felt that we're much closer than before.

I'm really blessed. She's like one of the few people who can really read my mind like a open book...

I think that's what friendship all about. A friendship which the foundation which built on truth; totally honest with one another.